As I continue to struggle in vain in my transition from college years to my first job, it often makes me think what is it that is really affecting me so much. On the surface I tend to know but I am not really sure if I do. As I was thinking, I realized maybe it isn't really what I say. Maybe my biggest problem is the fact I failed and that too terribly to say the least. As I was trying to figure out.my life somehow post college, everyone seemed to have it all figured out. It felt like I was the only one who didn't knew what to do. With most of my batch-mates getting admissions in our old or some new great institutions, it would feel like I was the one who was left behind. I must admit somehow some days I still feel like that. I still dread watching and scrolling social media. As everyone seems elated in those pics, I feel embarrassed. For failing, not being able to be proud of where I am, and yet failing to move out to a better place. I often wonder maybe its just the je