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Stop Expecting Them To Understand!

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The advice we empathetically present to our friends is often the same ones we learnt too late, at a cost we wish wasn't so huge. As you tell them that not all has been lost and their worth and what they bring to the table is way beyond the biggest of their dreams and worst of their failings they may have known. Yet in your own shoes, besides all the words you throw around to sooth your heart ache, you often feel defeated and lost beyond despair. 

You finally woke up but knowing that it probably is already too late doesn't really help your sleep. Nor does it do much to help you get out of bed as suddenly you begin to wake up with the worst of your fears each day. There is so much you know today; you just wish you had garnered enough will yesterday. But, I guess Bob Marley was right when he said, "You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice."  © Source: Quotespedia

Me being me, I didn't come back to my senses untill all my escape options stood exhausted and I finally had to confront the same old fix with not much space to run away. Those paralysing moments would always remain one of my strongest regret but me being me I needed to see an end to it all before I could finally move on. 

Offcourse no excuses can ever bring back those days and looking back, my brains are on their side too as they blame my weak choices over the past six months. But, I guess even when we know we had messed up big time, its constant reminders are the last thing we like to hear and still bring me back to paper and blogs to rant nonetheless. 

But, if there is anything I have leant in the past one year, pity parties and blame games take you nowhere. Sometimes, you gotta just accept your faults, all your mistakes in their entirity and learn to live with the same. Though on the ironic side, I guess life is finally gonna have its way where I finally dare to take a leap of faith or move on with my next best to never look back. 

It literally feels like loving two man and being equally scared of both and funny enough I still don't know which way to go. But, untill the time I remain in a fix, like an annoying child, I am gonna keep bothering you with my tales until my heart either finally find its way or a choice finally takes shape. But, signing off for now. Good Night. Take Care. #Pen'sProdigy #AWritingManiac all the way. 

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