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A promise to keep...

"Sometimes the only people you wish to be on your side are the ones you cannot get on board in the end."

He wasn't just another professor of my college but is a man I look upto, a mentor I could always ask for advice and is probably a person who is almost like a father figure in my life. His guidance and support has always been a huge source of encouragement.

He is definitely a person I genuinely listen to, often follow his advise though might not always agree. But in three years in some way or the other, I always had his approval to go ahead (even if it was just a go ahead to try and experiment but just not this time).

The fact that he would just not agree was scary and the possibility that maybe I have let him down this time was in a way heartbreaking. For once, I don't have the courage to meet his eyes and face him until I have proven myself worthy of  his faith.

Though there has been a moment when I had been unintentionally rude and probably created a misunderstanding but he had been forgiving. But, this time it feels like an end of the road and I had never thought out of all times this was the point where our views would differ.

Honestly, I am not sure if it is the right thing to do or if my reasons are even logical for the same but even when I had put all the sentimental reasons aside, it was yet the same thing I wished to do.

With so many things going on in my head, I am not sure if I can even explain but I definitely don't have the courage to face his disapproval and that conflict yet again.

Sir, I understand, "Maybe I have let you down somewhere with my choices this year but as you said, It's ok to experiment sometimes and see how it goes. I shall be happy to come back and let you know that yes you were right but I wish to try. But, yes I promise to make up for it someday and make you proud."


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