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Rebuilding myself ... one day at a time

16.10.2025 How do you regain self-love and rebuild your self-worth from the point you feel abandoned. How can you have everything in the world and still get stuck with that one little missing piece.  Honestly, I don't know. I am writing this blog in the hope that it would mark the start of my journey to the discovery of that solution. I can't refind the love I held for the friends I lost, nor do I think I can find it in me to let it go right now. I know I am probably no one to forgive but I still can't get how can you be so genuine one second and indifferent in another.   I have no idea how to let things go but I also know life always finds a way to heal every inch of your soul. There are so many moments when you feel this heartbreak would be the end of you, yet a few years down, you don't even care to remember their names, none of it even matters anymore.  But, Feb of this year hit different. I know it is stupid but these were the friends I thought I wil...

Mrs - A subtle, yet powerful take on domesticated patriarchy

I know I am late to the party but I instantly joined the fan club. A take on the silent, and mostly unacknowledged, labour of women in a family, Mrs takes us through the journey of a modern woman as she tries to find her place in the new family after marriage. The film broadly shows daily routine of a family almost on a loop -- wherein men go to work, exercise and enjoy, while women of the house find themselves stuck in the kitchen throughout the day and year.  At one point, the loop begins to feel repetitive, but it serves well to highlight the monotony in a woman's life -- through the protagonist, Richa (played by Sanya Malhotra), and her mother in law. The two scenes about a woman guest taking Richa's stand; and her friend's husband helping in the chores offer a refreshing contrast to the Kumars, who illustrate a typical patriarchal mindset.  Sanya nailed as Richa, as her character's silent compliance with her husband and in-laws demands speaks volumes about her rep...

Firefly in my dark hour

As I come back from work and sit down with my thoughts, it is literally like my chakravayu. I usually have so much to speak and only walls as listeners, so it easily gets converted into overthinking. But for a change, something really nice came out of it tonight, just sharing it below...a little draft of my heart ... Photo:  Enchanted Woodland Kingdom of Glowing Fireflies जब मैंने पीछे मुड़कर देखा तो उन नज़्म और तोहफ़ों में न बस मेरी आवाज थी पर रूह के टुकड़े बिखरे पड़े थे मेरे। सच पूछो तो अगर दोबारा जी सकूं, सब तोहफ़ों को अपने पास रहने दूंगी शायद। न खुद को पूरा करने की कोशिश करूंगी बस खुद पे और ज्यादा मेहनत करूंगी। जो वक्त बुरा हो तो किस ने लौटाई मोहब्बत मेरी, एक रिक्त स्थान सा है, पर जो रूह शांत और शुक्रगुजार हो तो बुरे लोगों से मिलना और उससे भी अधिक उनका रह पाना न याद है मुझे।  PS -  (I think I kept loving so intently because that's the most validation I got).  ... This one is a jumbled piece...but today I am simply too tired to process it nicely, so pl...