My Piece for the day

"Let them have the temples Just keep your faith Even if it is all a lie I like to believe  There is someone above us all Just makes world a little less scary" Even if it is a subject I return to every few months, making peace with traditons that erode my esteem, my sense of being has been an underlying struggle. I have also realised that I can't let go of my faith. It takes a part of me too. When you feel helpless amid people who yield power or have enough money to exercise authority, you need something to know goodness too has its place in the larger scheme.  Although I am extremely grateful, this year has brought in a truckload of questions. But I want to believe if there indeed is a God, he actually holds Kanha's calming smile. Somedays I need Arjun's friend, on others, the vastness of Shiva's Kailash...there are not many days I relate to Ram's responsibilities, maybe it is something I simply don't get.  If there indeed is a God, I like ...

I know all my problems are first-world. But, I am certain, I deserve days that are my own. There is nothing in the world that makes you miss your mom like that first year of marriage...as you are infactuated with love, you are equally prone to losing your sense of self.  Even if it becomes the root cause of all my misery, writing, expression and love is what I bring to the table. Yet, you have no idea how much I have missed taking out this one day for this little child in me. A nice living room looks nice, but that is all it is to me. How do you explain the freedom of getting to watch a movie without worrying about your next day, waking up through the night to finish your first anime, writing a blog after what feels like ages, finally getting to complete a poem, that actually rhymes and makes you proud. Those are the little things I live for. I am completely sure, I can't love until I feel completely at ease and am in absolute love with myself. I can't pray until I find my voic...

Have you ever felt like you want the freedom to feel pain? I wish to go on a vacation not to catch a sunset but to sit aloof without worrying about getting ready for work, with no one to judge my tears, no one to show up for. I want the luxury to sit in silence and cry on a shoulder until my eyes run out of pain. I want to take a break without the fear that the world may pass over. Have you ever run out of love? I sometimes feel the lack of love to the point I genuinely don't want someone to care, for it becomes another obligation, another reason I should be grateful. I don't know how to not show up even though my own heart needs repair. Maybe it is my own fault as I hate conflict and sometimes it can be a task to not be a people pleaser.  Sometimes you simply don't have it in you to be happy for them because there is a part of you that still grieves all that you never got. Sometimes people who love us do everything in their power yet you can't help your feelings. You k...